November 14, 2005
the storm
kelp after the storm, Canon Digital Rebel
The theme of the storm keeps coming into my life this week. I did my funny little divination game with the dictionary yesterday morning and asked, "What do I need to know about my life right now?" I closed my eyes, opened up the dictionary and got the word "storm." This felt like an apt description, and comforting somehow, knowing that storms actually have an end point and that sunshine eventually finds its way through grey clouds.
Later in the day I went to an amazing celebration at Glide church. My favorite song of the day was sung by Vernon Bush. The lyrics said, "Well my brothers/sisters, the storm ain't gonna last always..." Later, during the sermon, the storm theme returned when Douglass Fitch preached about making it to shore on the broken pieces of your life. He reminded us that when the storm comes, we can still make it on our brokenness. We don't have to be whole, or perfect, or together to make it through.
And to complete the set, my first show of the holiday season is this Saturday night. It is called, you guessed it, Storm. It is a fashion show and party featuring 100 emerging SF designers.
If you are in the bay area, I hope to see you there!
Posted on November 14, 2005 07:46 AMhi andrea,
i was wondering if you have any recommendations for holiday bazarre type events (in SF) with minimum fees to be involved in. i've made a bunch of hand bags and would like to try to sell them somewhere...
thanks!
jessica
hi andrea,
i was wondering if you have any recommendations for holiday bazarre type events (in SF) with minimum fees to be involved in. i've made a bunch of hand bags and would like to try to sell them somewhere...
thanks!
jessica
Um, so, we just did this dictionary business and my word was 'metatarsal.'
I don't know what to make of that.
Posted by: Jenny at November 15, 2005 07:05 PMAndrea, My wish for you is this..."May all your storm clouds soon pass, and may you see a bright and shining rainbow." Hang in there. All my best to you, and good luck on the show, it sounds like it will be amazing! :)
Posted by: Julia at November 15, 2005 04:32 PMI love your Dictionary Divination game. I'll have to try it! Good luck on your show.
Posted by: Wanda Tucker at November 15, 2005 08:30 AMI've always felt like there's such serendipity and magic in your life. :)
Posted by: LB at November 14, 2005 11:30 PMGood luck on your show!
Posted by: G-Man at November 14, 2005 07:16 PMI love this photo - were you down on your belly in the sand?
Posted by: stef at November 14, 2005 04:21 PMthis is sort of related to your last entry on numbers.
A few weeks ago on a family trip home, I had a cousin ask me...do you want children? I gave her a puzzled look because I have told my family on a continuous basis not to ask me this question since it's so sensitive. I am not married, and significantly far from getting there...
Yes, I replied.
and how are old are you?, she said
I'll be 37 on my next birthday, I said
she said oh...
Guess I better get on it then shouldn't I? I said.
and later I cried myself to sleep. isn't it amazing how much just little tiny words can cut so deep?
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recently i've explored the idea of what if i'm standing in my own way about all this...
it's a crazy sorted path of thought really but i'm making little steps to step aside. While pondering this I called up a
spiritually enlightened friend and talked to her about it. she relayed this information: We all have chakra blockages things that can't go away with therapy ect..., they are there from past lives, tramas, or current events. anyway if you want to know more about it and her suggested resolve you've got my email:)
it just feels really wacky to talk about it over a random post, but it made alot of sense to me.
big hug and a virtual cupcake for your birthday
rs.
A,
I wish you tons and tons of success at your first show this season.. I so wish I could be near SF just once.. I'd bring you pretty coffee and wish you loads of luck.
Jenn
Posted by: jenn at November 14, 2005 03:15 PMsweet womyn, in the 40 days or so leading up to your birthday, you are going through your "Transformation" cycle - also called the Destroyer cycle. It is a powerful cycle, but at times feels like a clothes dryer on tumble cycle.
Your life naturally goes through a state of tearing away those things that don't work for you, wiping the slate clean for new things to blossom for you. It can feel like a storm.
Since your birthday, you have moved into INITIATION cycle. Things will change for you. The storm waters will subside. You will be initated in the new ways of your life.
"This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
Some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they're a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of it's furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out for some new delight."
~ Rumi
Wishing you great blessings in your journey,
love,
Leonie
and how in our own power we are when we know we are the storm, the grey clouds, and the sun. we begin it and end it and all the rest in between too.
Posted by: julie at November 14, 2005 12:00 PMandrea, what a potent metaphor the storm is! i've been thinking lately of a water-themed metaphor as well, and reminding myself of this quote from andre gide, "one does not discover new lands without consenting to lose sight of the shore for a very long time." i find it reassuring to remember there is a purpose to my being unanchored and lost at sea! i hope you found meaningful ways to celebrate the anniversary of your birth. and look! the sun has finally come out again in sf!