May 14, 2008

heartache

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heartache, San Francisco, CA, Canon Elph SD1000

Just a little note for the folks out there whose hearts are aching today. I see you.

Posted on May 14, 2008 09:19 AM
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Thank you. I'm losing my mom to a cancerous brain tumor. My heart is broken, and it is the worst thing I have ever experienced. I know, in my heart, it will be okay. But some days, it just doesn't seem like it.
Paula

Posted by: paula at May 17, 2008 11:00 PM

thank you.
sending you love too.

Posted by: boho girl at May 16, 2008 10:40 PM

I needed this. Thank you, dear one.

Posted by: kelsie at May 16, 2008 11:41 AM

Thank you. And thanks even more for ACCEPTING it. Few people in my life seem to. Thank heavens for superheroes and moms!

Posted by: Piper at May 16, 2008 08:49 AM

thank you

Posted by: Dianw at May 15, 2008 08:50 PM

i am hiding out at my computer tonight with tears in my eyes, for my daughter. She had a big rejection (competitive sports team issue) happen today. I did the cheery mom thing, "look at the bright side" speech and came down to cry quietly for her disappointment. Amazing that i pulled up your site and there you were ... understanding. Hope you have a fantastic day tomorrow Andrea, you connect so many of us and bring much joy - has anyone told you lately how stinking cute Ben is? I watched the video of him running and giggling and I really laughed out loud. all the documentation you have of him will be an amazing gift one day.

Posted by: Lisa at May 15, 2008 07:54 PM

i am hiding out at my computer tonight with tears in my eyes, for my daughter. She had a big rejection (competitive sports team issue) happen today. I did the cheery mom thing, "look at the bright side" speech and came down to cry quietly for her disappointment. Amazing that i pulled up your site and there you were ... understanding. Hope you have a fantastic day tomorrow Andrea, you connect so many of us and bring much joy - has anyone told you lately how stinking cute Ben is? I watched the video of him running and giggling and I really laughed out loud. all the documentation you have of him will be an amazing gift one day.

Posted by: Lisa at May 15, 2008 07:54 PM

andrea, it is absolutely amazing how your words and images can touch all of us so deeply - and so differently. i'm getting teary just thinking about how, at times, it feels like you understand me better than anyone that i know in "real life." in a way, i suppose this is sad, but i am choosing to find the beauty in it. i am so grateful for you!

Posted by: emily at May 15, 2008 11:52 AM

i know your ache, nicole. hang in there and trust you will find your heart again....the void will fill.

Posted by: David at May 15, 2008 10:04 AM

filing for divorce today. and I needed this.

Posted by: Nicole at May 15, 2008 09:45 AM

i think this heartache psot goes hand in hand with your what are you willing to receive post. i am willing to receive my abby. i am willing to recieve a way this will all work out. i am wiling to beleive that i will be a mother someday. i am willing to receive a stronger marriage for it all. i am willing to beleive that my husband and i will make it through this struggle for a baby in tact, and in lvoe. i am willing to elt go of my fears that my husband will elave me over the baby thing and subsequent depression. i am willing to receive a heart that is filled back up againa nd is not broken. i am willing to elt go of the fear that none of this will work out. i am willing to receive that everything will work out. i am willing to let go of the fear that god doesn't want me to have a child. i am willing to elt go of the fear that it is jsut not in the cards for me. i am willing to receive my family. i am willing to let my broken heart open up so that new life can grow in the cracks of its sidewalk. i am willing to beleive that this will all work out for everyone's highest good. i am willing to recieve a miracle. i am willign to recieve a way out of this trapped feelign. i am willing to receive an easy answer. i am willing to feel the pain so that i may ehal. i am willing to let go of my ejalousy of other women's pregnancies and my judgements of why they get to be pregnant and i am not. yet. i am willing to receive that i deserve to be a mother. i am willing to recieve that possiblity. i am willing to recieve finding out i am pregant. i am willing to receive my marriage feleign safe and supportive again. i am willinn to beleive my husband won't give up on me. i amw illing to beleive that i can feel better. i am willing to beleive that god wants me to be a mother. thank you for this post. i neede to be seen. i feel small and quiet and invisible and heartbroken. i want to beleive and recieve all good things coming this way. thanks

Posted by: penelope at May 15, 2008 09:24 AM

you are an angel.
i started commenting last night but was just too overwhelmed with emotion.
my husband gave me one of the new superhero bullseye necklaces for mothers day.
and it was perfect. and it's a constant reminder to me that i can do this being a mom thing.
sunday i had to take my sweet little 1 year old boy to the ER for the second time in 4 days. now today we found out he has a mass in his bladder. more tests + doctor appointments to come.
your message was perfect for me last night. it felt like you left it just for me.
thank you so much for always listening to your heart and sharing your amazing soul with us.

much love.

xx
jill

Posted by: jill s at May 15, 2008 06:38 AM

Andrea, Thank you for being one of the kind and gentle spirits that makes the world a better place.

xo -L

Posted by: Leia at May 14, 2008 10:12 PM

thank you kindly. i really appreciate your words and generous spirit. i needed this tonite. thanks

Posted by: chrissy at May 14, 2008 09:42 PM

Thank you!

Posted by: Jennifer at May 14, 2008 09:10 PM

My heart aches because even though I love being a Mom, I feel SO overwhelmed right now. I miss "me"...(tear drops...)...and I feel so guilty about feeling this way.

xo glo :(

Posted by: glo at May 14, 2008 08:15 PM

thx.

Posted by: LD in PDX at May 14, 2008 08:10 PM

My heart hurts and aches and swells today. Someone I was starting to fall deeply in love with, albeit unknowingly to him, wrote a beautiful blog post today about a woman he is falling in love with...a stake to the heart. I haven't hurt so much in a long time. One of the things I love about you and your blog is that you remember others may still be hurting even when you are in a good place and I love that about you. Thanks Andrea

Posted by: Ale at May 14, 2008 07:14 PM

Thank you, Andrea. That was exactly what I needed just now, and I honestly think I'll sleep better for it~ blessings on you, dearie.

Posted by: Anna at May 14, 2008 06:13 PM

i wonder if you saw me crying on the train today. maybe you did. thank you.

Posted by: j at May 14, 2008 05:55 PM

my heart is hurting today for the people of china with lost sisters, children, husband and lives....i hope we can all see them somehow in our day.

Posted by: mamie at May 14, 2008 03:30 PM

Wow, David's comment below really struck a chord. It's amazing how the simplest of statements have the profoundest effects....

Posted by: Jennifer at May 14, 2008 03:12 PM

Being seen is the most important thing of all. Thank you.

Posted by: Dr S at May 14, 2008 03:07 PM

Bless you, Andrea. It makes the pain a little more bearable.

Posted by: Rindy at May 14, 2008 02:45 PM

how'd you know?
xoxo!

Posted by: Jen Downer at May 14, 2008 01:43 PM

Thank you x

Posted by: Lucia at May 14, 2008 12:26 PM

Perfect timing. I needed that as well. Thank you.

Posted by: Brian at May 14, 2008 12:07 PM

My heart is aching to make more photographs, learn how to make digital negatives, get back into the darkroom, learn vandyke printinging, buy more type 55 polaroid before it is all gone, and get my MFA.
It is a different type of aching - but I feel it and it hurts in a good way.

Posted by: Catherine J at May 14, 2008 11:27 AM

*hugs* Thanks..I needed that.

Posted by: tali at May 14, 2008 11:24 AM

And here I am thinking I had been doing a good job at hiding.

Posted by: David at May 14, 2008 11:24 AM
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